My headspace has changed

Why, oh why, must life travel so fast when you're an employed, married, cat parenting, friend-making adult? How, exactly, is it almost time for the holidays? And where did the warm weather go? Seems like just a couple days ago SF was still reaping the benefits of the late summer/early autumn transition, and now all of a sudden it is truly fall. I feel like it's all gone by in the blink of an eye.

There was a time when work was just this thing I did with relative ease. Something happened along the way that changed that, and I still don't know exactly what that is. We definitely got busier and had some bigger changes in our organization, but it feels like more than that. Is it me, is it work, or is it both? I can never tell for sure.

Blogging (writing), as I used to tell Honey Bunny, is something you have to do often in order to stay adept at it. By the time I leave work there is plenty to do on the way home and at home, and the last thing I feel like doing is spending more time in front of the computer. I really miss writing in blog format on a regular basis but unfortunately there are other priorities at this point in time. I'm hoping that going forward I can blog at least once a month. Again with the headspace change.

I lost a lot of momentum on my Zaftig Chicks Meetup group by mid-September when work started to get uber busy and I was getting ready for vacation. By the time I got back into it, when I got back from vacation, I'd honestly lost some interest. Once again, and here at the three month anniversary mark, I've gone back and forth on whether to just pull the plug on the group or to try to revive it. After consulting with my two regular group members and friends, I decided to give it another go. Last Sunday night I was the posting fool on our group's Meetup site, having planned two events a month through January and sent an email to the group outlining some changes in administration (no RSVP's three times in a row and you're out). We'll see how it goes.

I'll be honest... I feel like I've lost the excitement of trying new things and trying to stay in a present-oriented headspace. I'm excited to do more Letterpress and to see where my Meetup group goes, but otherwise feel like - you guessed it - my headspace has changed. This is, in some ways, totally natural. Afterall, you can't spend your life in a heightened state of mind full of change forever. I went through a peak and now I'm in a valley... that is the course of life. Weather and the seasons are also ever-changing, so maybe it's just time to hunker down and ponder for awhile.


ps. It's not all been downhill... the Giants won the World Series! And, I got to attend the Champions parade in downtown SF! There is a benefit to working near Civic Center...